Jenny Said

By Pandora Poikilos

Jenny said
Right or wrong, true or false
So many childlike games to play
Love me he did, rob me he did
Girl one minute, woman the next
Do I really need to forgive?

Jenny said
Time is supposed to
Heal my wounds, they tell me
Time will make me better
But, so long, and my wounds are still here
Will I ever stop hurting to feel better?

Jenny said
I know my life is wrong
I know my ways can be better
I know many things that need fixing
But all I want is some loving
Can anyone love me and be accepting?

Jenny said
As he hits me, again
And tries to break me
I let my mind wander
Knowing life can be better
When will it be enough?

Jenny said
I want to leave him
I want to be away
But he loves me, you see
Maybe this is the love I deserve
Or is there really something better?

Jenny said
One day, I'll find a love
That is so great
That is so accepting
And loves me for who I am
Why can't I find this love today?

Jenny said
I am so damaged, beyond words
I am so broken, beyond repair
There are so many pieces of me
There is no peace within me
How can you love me?

Jenny said
There is no such thing as love
Love happens to other people
People who have love to give
Why do you love me
When I have none to give?